Updated: Aug 19, 2020
On July 3, 2020, my life changed forever. I lost a huge part of me. My grandpa affectionately known as "Papa" transitioned. It felt like a dream. How could the man that has been here my whole life just suddenly be gone? I did not and still cannot understand why. The bond we shared was so special. He was everything I have ever needed him to be. In my eyes, my papa was perfect. We talked multiple time a day and saw each other almost everyday. So how do I go from that to not hearing from or seeing him anymore. That concept is still hard to grasp. I still have so much love for him and one of the hardest questions I've asked is; "Where does all of the love that I have for him go now that I cannot show it to him?"
That question was apart of a conversation that I had with my mom. She answered by saying "You can show that same love by doing the things that he would do and that way you take him with you everywhere you go." That was extremely comforting to hear. I plan to show and express my love to him by:
Greeting those I interact with a smile and good vibes
Praying and studying the Bible
Cooking with love
Loving my family unconditionally
Being a helpful hand to others
Taking good care of the things I have been blessed with
Cleaning out my car ( he would be happy about this one lol)
-- The love and bond that we share will always remain. I will forever cherish all of the memories I have of us.
This grieving process is unfamiliar. I've never experienced anything like this before. Please feel free to pray for my family and leave some ways you honor your loved ones both alive and deceased.